My future self

I was completely without inspiration this week.

I’ve been struggling with an almost constant headache, which only resolved after 2 visits to the chiropractor. After that I was just exhausted.

Now I am always fatigued, but this is the level of fatigue where you struggle to even lift a glass of water to your mouth. So I haven’t been writing. I’ve been hiding in online game world and fantasy novel world. And while that helps distract from the pain and fatigue, it doesn’t actually help much in the long run.

I’ve been following Jen from Healthy Moving for a while. I found her once after I signed up for one of those internet bundles and she had a class in it. Now I only get those bundles because of her contributions!

I recently signed up to her “No-time self-care 6 week challenge” which starts soon. I figure I have plenty of time, but not much energy, so small short exercises I can weave into my day are probably exactly what I need. Signing up also gave me temporary access to a lot of other stuff. One of which is the current “ritual challenge”. One of the things I love about Jen is that she isn’t just about exercise, she is all about your mindset too. The first mindset in her ritual challenge is to think about my future self.

This is the thing that managed to pull me out of my funk today. I found myself flicking from online game, to social media, to different game and then wondering what book to pull off my bookshelf when I decided to think about my future self.

That future self is probably not going to thank me for spending 6 hours on the couch mindlessly playing games. While I did spend 20 mins outside meditating this morning, that is not going to undo the damage I am doing to myself.

So I went and found my laptop and got into my whale (HBO2 chamber) and started to write. I didn’t actually know what I was going to write, just that Julie (my psychologist) encourages me to do so. It doesn’t use a lot of physical energy and it usually has a positive effect on my mood and general well-being.

And you know what?! It has done it again. While I’m still exhausted and not looking forward to working out how exactly I’m getting back out of my whale in about 15 minutes, I’m much happier. And I also feel like I’ve actually achieved something today. My future self will thank me for it I’m sure.

Author: Sonja

One woman’s journey as she comes to terms with living with Fibromyalgia. Living with her knight in tarnished armour, with a small flock of chickens, and pair of Tawny Frogmouths and a homicidal Butcher Bird in the backyard.