Today’s post is a bit disjointed. And I’m not happy with the title. I’ve been busy and I let the writing slide again. I don’t know why I do this, I enjoy writing and it helps my mental state.
I use excuses. I’ve been busy. I’ve been flaring. I’ve been doing other things. All of these are true. But I’ve found time to play games on my phone and watch TV, so I really don’t know why I often avoid the writing.
I’ve been reading a little about sub-conscious self sabotage. And maybe that’s what I’m doing. I find myself making excuses which seem perfectly reasonable to avoid doing things that I both enjoy and that help me.
Of course I can’t take the laptop into the bathroom while I’m having a soak in the tub. But I can take it into my HBO2 chamber. So I need to start doing that again.
If my hip is causing me pain when I sit cross legged, then I can just sit in a chair to meditate instead of deciding it’s too hard to find a comfortable position on the ground.
Yes, my emails need to be checked, but they’ll still be there tomorrow. Spending an hour checking emails is not as helpful for my health as writing even for 30 mins is.
I watched a webinar yesterday on how to be a successful writer. One big point that stood out to me, is that everything needs practice. I get so caught up on every post needing to be good, that I sometimes don’t write anything at all. So even though I’m not super happy with this particular post, it’s going out anyway. I’ve got to stop this cycle of self sabotage.
Do you notice any signs of self sabotage in your own life? And if so, what do you do about it? I’d love to know.